REPOSTING OLD BLOG: kakabakaba ka ba?

July 29th, 2006 by jeorav

kakabakaba ka ba?

note: contains graphic expression of sexual encounters

the existence of "other" beings not visible to ordinary eyes is just normal to me. suddden movements on the corner of one’s eyes is in fact a natural occurrence. ok, i admit, i see ghosts in diffrent manifestations. your reactions are nada importa. if you are a believer, then read on. if not, just do me a favor and treat this one as fictional (or go ahead and read the next blog).

i lived alone before in a condominium unit.

i took a break and slept nearly 4am after my routinary review for a national examinations two years ago.

sleeping alone on a queen size bed, i have all the space for myself. i have four pillows and a fluffy comforter to accompany me every night. sarap matulog, imagine after hours of reading and understanding theoretical discussions, you will sleep and rest your mind alone, all alone.

yun yung akala ko.

one particular morning, nakatagilid ako facing one side of the bed. suddenly, nagising ako kasi may bumubulong. i thought its a dream pero i have my hair at my nape standing. kilabot ko sa buong katawan. naramdaman ko kasi may tumabi sa akin (i was reminded by this story by a friend who recently experienced the same thing in bangkok).

syempre ndi ako dumilat, pero alam ko and with another sense nakikita ko na meron akong katabi na nakatingin sa akin. alam ko nakatingin sya but i know he has no eyeballs. he is whisphering something which i cannot understand or is it with fear that i find the words incomprehensible. after a while, he was gone.

sana dadagdagan ko ng sex story ito eh, kaso i decided to cut this short eh kasi while typing this story, alam ko may nanunuod at nakikibasa sa likod ko. the same shiver is present, the same hollow eyes reading line by line, and i can feel the air from a sewn mouth whisphering words again. ayoko tumingin sa likod, baka kasi kung ano yung makita ko.

kayo kaya, meron din? hindi ba may kilabot din kayo nararamdaman?

sige na… tingin na sa likod

nyt!

REVISITING OLD BLOG: Not a virgin anymore

July 16th, 2006 by jeorav

well, i have in mind ingredients to make it an interesting one — sex, drugs and violence. But because i was raised nearly as a priest (lol, my father will laugh when he reads this) i will set these aside except for exceptional circumstances and graphic description.

but what makes a blog a "good blog"?

will i discuss the way i see funny things in people? nah, i have yet to receive my mr.congeniality award (pending that i will behave, or at least try to). will i spill thoughts from observing people? duh! refer to the previous reason.

hmmm what makes a blog a "good blog"?

when the discussion lead me to my negative comments with the present or future political condition (imperyalismo ibagsak!), would that be interesting? nah, people may opt to watch news or commentaries. when the discussion tackles the church and the rival religions that can be seen 24 hours claiming the other is misinterpreting the verses of the catholic holy book, would that be worth the reading? the answer is obvious, i just wanted to affirm my curiosity.

so, when is a blog a "good blog"?

a blog would result to a review if i share my insights about a movie, or a book, or a play or a favorite restaurant. it would be an advice column if i pry into another’s privacy (well, i enjoy it and others wouldnt suspect) and lead them to realization (or the light perhaps?. it would cost you consultation fee if it comes to matters of my profession (i have one!)

And the witchhunters will burn me on a stake if i will be magickal or "new-agey".

Who determines a blog as a "good blog"?

definitely not english majors! they find it enjoyable to see to it that what you have written conforms to the S-LV-O or its variation. not philosophers because they will tell you it doesnt fit the realm of the philosophical. not theologians because topics and discussions may send you to hell or 50 years in purgatory (better prepare those indulegencia plenaria!). Not scientists because they don't have time reading mushiness or rants when they have to discover something for the further advancement of science.

how to start a blog as "good blog"?

hmmm, this is quite difficult. its easier to say that one’s blog is not a good blog than to say a blog is a good one. Maybe it has something to do with sentence construction? high-faluting words and figurative speeches? or it has something to do with topics that appeal to everyone? Hmm difficult indeed.

but hey! i created my first blog!!! after years of attempting, after going over notes and thoughtless insights (journals, pieces of papers, parchment from a magickal book), i finally created my first blog! and the good news, it has nothing to do with what i originally planned to write about.

so, is my blog a "good blog"?

honestly, i dont care. ;) i have my blog now. notice the word "MY" (emphasis supplied). but the great thing there is, i am a personification of Divine Providence. I love to share what has given to me or what i intellectually create (is this covered by intellectual property law?)

the rule is, you can look, but you can not touch

(thanks to the goddess for the inspiration.)

blessed be!